Ever since our miscarriage, I have really had to keep adjusting my attitude. I'm having a hard time of it. I feel like I am doing okay physically...it's mentally that I'm working on still. While the pregnancy was still in the extremely early stages, it doesn't make the experience any less traumatic.
I'm not really sure what I can do to make myself feel better. The wound is healing, but it still hurts. I suppose I am still in the grieving process. I'm hoping to become pregnant again very soon, but until then I have to get myself through this.
I've done a few newborn shoots lately and I have had a hard time editing them. I have a hard time when someone brings in a newborn to work. A few friends of mine have recently become pregnant and it just feels like someone punches me in the stomach everytime I think about it. Not that I'm not happy for my friends...I am....it's just very bittersweet for me.
I am all over the place. I don't really have this blog for others to read, although I don't mind if they do. I have it mostly just for me. And to print out some posts for Claire's baby book. :)
Well, hopefully my anguish will alleviate soon. Everything heals in time, right?
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